At the Los Angeles premiere of his film, Runaway, Kanye West revealed just how downtrodden he had been following the loss of his mother and other loved ones. He took some time away from the spotlight following the death of his mother and the public backlash against him after the 2009 MTV Video Music Awards, and apparently came back with a new perspective.

“There were times that I contemplated suicide,” West said. Referring to himself as a “soldier for culture,” Kanye added, “I will not give up on life again. There’s so many people that will never get the chance to have their voice heard…I do it for them.”

During the presentation of his 35-minute, abstract film, West made references to his influence on Pop culture and how music and art has helped him deal with loss. The Associated Press quoted Kanye as saying he felt a responsibility to make a meaningful contribution to pop culture and art. Having lost three parental figures within the last three years, Kanye added that his personal issues have also influenced his art in a positive way.

“Everything has been taken away from me,” Kanye said. “I’m so not…scared. I so don’t care.”

From his weekly release of free music, to his recent Twitter presence, West called the period during which Runaway and My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy were crafted his “creative sweet spot.” As reported earlier, Runaway will premiere Saturday, October 23. The companion album, My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy is scheduled for a November 22 release.