As much of the Hip Hop community focused their attention towards the 2016 BET Hip Hop Awards, Kid Cudi was cleaning out his closet and giving validity to many fans’ assumptions that his recent tongue-lashing directed at Drake and Kanye West was a cry for help.
Although he seemed confident at the time of the Twitter rant and released a couple of singles from his upcoming Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin’, apparently, the devil’s minions were still inhabiting his soul.
In an open Facebook post, Cudi, 34, copped to not only be depressed but suicidal and just yesterday, Monday, October 3, he checked himself into an undisclosed rehab location.
Via his Facebook:
Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.
Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.
I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.
If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.
Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.
I love you,
After initially returning the ill-willed sentiment, Kanye West fell back and called his former GOOD Music go-to man “his brother” and showered him with nothing but well-wishes.
HipHopDX is also wishing Kid Cudi a speedy recovery and doesn’t want anyone suffering from depression to hesitate on calling the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 24/7.