Danny Brown has shed some light on a dark time in his life which left him feeling “pretty much suicidal.”
In a new interview with The Guardian, the Detroit rapper spoke candidly about hitting “rock bottom” after wrestling with substance abuse.
Brown admitted that in 2020, amid the fentanyl crisis that is still plaguing the U.S. today, he binged on drugs despite the risk of them being contaminated with the powerful synthetic opioid.
“I got to the point where I was pretty much suicidal,” he said.
Elaborating on his downward spiral following his split from his longtime girlfriend, Brown said: “I’m in this nice-ass apartment, it was like four bedrooms, but I’m lonely as fuck. It got to the point I was just getting fucked up, every day, by myself.”
According to The Guardian, he would “get through a bottle of spirits a day, topped up with a smörgåsbord of cocaine, pills, mushrooms, weed or whatever else was on offer.”
“It was seven days a week,” Brown added. “I was in pain all the time. Throwing up and shit, you know? It was my rock bottom, that’s how it was.”
Fortunately, Danny Brown was able to muster the strength to pull himself off that path of self-destruction and check himself into rehab earlier this year.
“At the end of the day, I’m 42 years old, sitting around smoking blunts all day, and getting drunk is getting old,” he said during a performance at SXSW in March. “Y’all have y’all fun but shit could get dark. I’m going to get help.”
He added: “Honestly, my dumb ass supposed to been gone, but I’m broke so I gotta do shows to take my ass in, so shoutout to Dr. Martens.”
He also apologized for making “so many songs about doing drugs” and for potentially influencing his fans to try them.
The Bruiser Brigade boss left rehab in May. During an episode of his podcast The Danny Brown Show, he reflected on his stint in the treatment facility and called it a “humbling” experience.
“I will say, man, like being in treatment and all that shit, the one thing it did do was it humbled the fuck out of me,” he said. “It made me real fucking, just showed a lot of gratitude.
“I got a cool-ass life, man…’cause a lot of these muthafuckas that’s in there, you know, they had drinking problems, drug problems and that shit. They gotta go back to work.”
He continued: “They gotta go work a real regular 9 to 5. I had one of the best jobs in the fucking world, man, so I was taking a lot of shit for granted. I will say that I’m back. Ya boy is back!”
Having faced his demons, Danny Brown is set to return to music later this month with his new album Quaranta, out November 17 via Warp Records.
The eagerly-anticipated project — which follows his 2019 LP uknowhatimsayin¿ — features appearances from MIKE, Bruiser Wolf and Kassa Overall, along with production from The Alchemist, Paul White and Quelle Chris, among others.