CHIKA worried her millions of fans over the weekend when she posted an alarming statement to her Instagram Stories indicating she was on the verge of suicide. But on Sunday (March 27), the 25-year-old Warner Music Group artist provided an update via Twitter, writing, “alive. wanna go home.”
The Grammy Award-nominated rapper/singer had been in St. Paul, Minnesota where she said she considered jumping off the top of The InterContinental Hotel but was too afraid due to the “metal stairs.”
CHIKA’s message raised a red flag for anyone who’s familiar with her story. The Alabama native shot to notoriety following a string of viral freestyles but has routinely confessed how much she wrestles with her mental health. On Friday (March 25), she said she was ready to end her life.
“i went to the top of the intercontinental, but could not jump. not because i don’t want to, but because the metal stairs were scary. that’s the thing about having a fucked up brain. no matter how much pain you’re in, there will always be something holding you back. it’s draining & sad,” she wrote. “it looks like crying wolf, but it’s not. it’s just difficult to find the right way. the quickest way. the painless way. i am tired of myself too.”
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She continued, “i don’t need anyone feeling bad or worried bc i failed the last time i tried. save your emotions for when I succeed.” After describing herself as a “cautionary tale of sorts [when no one listens],” she called her potential suicide as “eternal freedom.” She ended the post with, “No more typing. i’m going to finish my drink and find a way that works. thanks for the ride, i hated it.”
CHIKA is getting a lot of support in the comment section. As one person wrote, “We are glad that you are still here Chika, please be easy with yourself. Navigating this world is tough, it is, but I promise it’s not all bad. The bad can irritatingly block the light, more than we want it to, and that is because we are letting it do so.”
Anyone struggling with suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at (800) 273-8255.