Post Malone opened about his face tattoos in the cover story for GQ Style‘s Spring/Summer 2020 issue. In the interview, the diamond-selling artist said the ink work on his face comes from insecurity about his looks.

“I’m a ugly-ass motherfucker,” he explained. “It does maybe come from a place of insecurity, to where I don’t like how I look, so I’m going to put something cool on there so I can look at myself and say, ‘You look cool, kid,’ and have a modicum of self-confidence, when it comes to my appearance.”

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The conversation also delved into Post’s mental health, addressing the sadness he deals with despite his success. According to him, the sorrow dates back to his childhood.

“Middle school, I would cry myself to sleep every fuckin’ day,” he said. “High school, the same thing. I tried to drink some beers to get rid of that shit, but it just never goes away. And I don’t think that’s anybody’s fault; it has to do with something predisposed in you.”

Post expressed concern about how addressing the underlying causes of how he’s feeling might affect his music, but he is seeking help — though he wouldn’t specify if that meant professional treatment for his mental health.

“I’m trying,” he told GQ. “It’s difficult. Through my songs, I can talk about whatever I want. But sitting here, face-to-face, it’s difficult.”

Post is currently on the second leg of his Runaway Tour with Swae Lee and Tyla Yaweh. Check out his concert dates below.