After going from his breakout album Oxymoron to seeing lower sales on his 2016 project Blank Face LP, ScHoolboy Q’s confidence plummeted.
“It fucked me up real bad,” he admitted to The Breakfast Club host.
Although Blank Face LP received good reviews, Q didn’t care because his album and shows weren’t selling the same.
“Fuck the reviews! These is nerds reviewing your shit dawg!” he said. “Fuck the good reviews… The response of good reviews and seeing shows not sold out made me confused.”
Falling into a depression over his last album was one of the reasons CrasH Talk went through three different versions before it was finally released.
“I was so introspective. The first album just like… I’m trying to win muthafuckas over so bad,” he said. “Like, what am I doing? This is not Q.”
“The other one was trying to sound like whatever I was listening to,” he continued. “And the other one was just completely trash,” he said laughing. “That’s how I came up with CrasH. I kept crashing.”
In the interview, Q also reflected on the sedentary and sometimes isolating world of recording and said that taking up golf became an outlet for him to get outside and meet new people.
ScHoolboy Q choked up when speaking about Mac Miller and Nipsey Hussle and said he was on some “weak ass shit” when he defended himself to those who criticized him for grieving their deaths quietly instead of posting about them on social media.
“The fact that I let them do that to me… I’ll never do that again,” he said. “As strong as I am in my mind, I was that insecure that I had to say something.”
“I played him [Mac Miller] CrasH Talk before he passed,” Q continued tearfully. “That Mac shit bruh… to this day, I just don’t understand how I can’t call my n*gga no more.”
Besides opening up about these tragedies and facing his mental health, Q also celebrated his new album, sobriety and said he’s now more mentally and physically fit than ever.
“I learned to please yourself more than please others because you’re never gonna win,” he said.
Watch the full interview above.